were_lemur: (Willow/Tara talk nerdy to me)
Over and over again, the subject gets raised: why is there so much more m/m fanfic than there is f/f? And over and over again, the specter of women's own self-loathing is raised, as well as the theory that we have bought into male supremacy, that we find men's stories more compelling because society tells us that they are the important stories.

While I don't doubt that those are answers for some people, they always seemed to fall short as an explanation of why I personally wrote so much more m/m fic.

This weekend, at LosCon, (a Los Angeles area science fiction convention) I picked up a book called Queers Dig Time Lords, which is obviously relevant to my interests. One of the essays, Amal El-Mohtar's "Sub Texts: The Doctor and The Master's Firsts and Lasts" proved enlightening for reasons completely above and beyond any insights about my One True Whovian Pairing.

In comparing Davies and Moffat's tenures as showrunner, and their portrayals of male/male verses female/female sexuality, El-Mohtar writes:

"Post-Jack-Harkness, there is a remarkable reluctance to show men flirting or being intimate with other men, even while they are in an established, explicitly marked romantic relationship -- a reluctance that does not extend to women performing sexual desire for other women. much as i delight in seeing the latter, if makes me uncomfortable to see women repeatedly sexualized when men are not; my Male Gaze sense starts tingling, and I find myself facing the same kinds of proscription I felt as a teen."

That paragraph hit me with an almost-physical sensation. Sitting there in the restaurant down the street from the con, I read that paragraph over three or four times, absorbing it. Because it spoke to me on a deep level.

As a young queer woman, my first experiences of seeing myself in the media were through the straight male gaze. "Hot girl-on-girl action," specifically marketed to straight dudes. And though I sought out media by queer women for queer women as soon as I could, growing up in a culture that views female sexuality as primarily or even exclusively for the titillation of men has, perhaps inevitably, left its mark on my psyche.

It's harder to imagine a place further from the male gaze than the almost-exclusively-female world of fanfiction. But while I may intellectually know that, I still have a lifetime of experience with media, which has sunk its roots deep into my subconscious. It's hard to untangle my own female sexuality from the straight male gaze, even when I know that gaze is not present.
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Doctor Who, Doctor/Master, teen and up, not mine. The Master's been reading fanfic again. (Anything to pass the time.) Crack.

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were_lemur: Aragorn and Boromir sharing a meaningful look (im in ur fandum queering ur dudez)
Goldeneye, James Bond/Alec Trevelyan, all audiences, not mine. Some things they just don't talk about.

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were_lemur: Aragorn and Boromir sharing a meaningful look (im in ur fandum queering ur dudez)
Doctor Who, Doctor/Master, teen and up (mild violence and sexuality), not mine. For the [community profile] slashthedrabble prompt: Evil Overlord List.

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Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Giles/Ethan + Buffy, General Audiences, not mine. Giles tries to comfort Buffy, Ethan tries to comfort Giles. Neither of them completely succeed. Part of the Buffy has Two Daddies-verse.

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were_lemur: (Barbossa wonders what Jack's compensatin)
This fic is rated: G (as long as you don't contemplate why they're sharing a cabin)
Fandom: Pirates of the Caribbean
Pairing: Jack Sparrow/Hector Barbossa
Summary: crack
Warnings, for those as wants them: )
Spoilers: for AWE?
Word Count: 100
Feedback: yes, please! Concrit welcomed.
Distribution: archiving, linking or remixing ok, just credit me and drop me a line!
Cross-Posted [livejournal.com profile] were_lemur, [livejournal.com profile] pirategasm, [livejournal.com profile] potc_fic, [livejournal.com profile] potc_100, [livejournal.com profile] firstothefinish, [livejournal.com profile] barbossa_fic, [livejournal.com profile] whore4hector
My FanFic Masterlist
Disclaimer: PotC belongs to Disney. Characters will be played with nicely and returned to them in good condition when I'm done. No infringement is intended, please don't sue me!

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were_lemur: (Rule 34 Enforcement Squad)
This fic is rated: R
Fandom: Numb3rs
Characters/Pairing: Don Eppes/Ian Edgerton
For [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic's lonely prompt: Don or Charlie/Ian, pretend non-con/rough sex "It's the only way he can truly let go."
Warnings: )
Word Count: 100
Feedback: yes, please! Concrit welcomed.
Distribution: archiving, linking or remixing ok, just credit me and drop me a line!
My FanFic Masterlist
Disclaimer: Not mine, only borrowed!

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